I am quickly discovering life with an almost 16 year old. On one hand, I see this gorgeous girl with all of the talent and personality anyone could hope for, and on the other hand, I see everything in me that I don't like. Stubborn, independent, blah, blah, blah. All of a sudden my intelligence has dwindled by half! I remember that time in my life. When my mother all of a sudden knew nothing. And all of my friends at school were the trusted confidants. I want to have her be the abnormal teenager that doesn't go through that, that will actually take my advice and grow up to be 10 times more than I am. I am finally understanding the frustration, and the pain. Your heart aches when you see them go down the same paths that you took, simply because you wouldn't listen to your parents either!! We try like hell to be different and fight upstream, only to realize that every other person in the world did the same blank-idy-blank thing!!! I know in my heart that she will grow into an amazing person, she already is one, but it is soooooo scary! Letting go is the most difficult step in motherhood that I have experienced yet! Absolutely heart wrenching! This is why we start to age at this point! heehee I know that we will work everything out, it is the just the unknown that is always the scariest! She is and will always be a good friend and my first born! Nothing changes that!
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Bringing up Morgan....
I am quickly discovering life with an almost 16 year old. On one hand, I see this gorgeous girl with all of the talent and personality anyone could hope for, and on the other hand, I see everything in me that I don't like. Stubborn, independent, blah, blah, blah. All of a sudden my intelligence has dwindled by half! I remember that time in my life. When my mother all of a sudden knew nothing. And all of my friends at school were the trusted confidants. I want to have her be the abnormal teenager that doesn't go through that, that will actually take my advice and grow up to be 10 times more than I am. I am finally understanding the frustration, and the pain. Your heart aches when you see them go down the same paths that you took, simply because you wouldn't listen to your parents either!! We try like hell to be different and fight upstream, only to realize that every other person in the world did the same blank-idy-blank thing!!! I know in my heart that she will grow into an amazing person, she already is one, but it is soooooo scary! Letting go is the most difficult step in motherhood that I have experienced yet! Absolutely heart wrenching! This is why we start to age at this point! heehee I know that we will work everything out, it is the just the unknown that is always the scariest! She is and will always be a good friend and my first born! Nothing changes that!
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AH ... the trails of raising our children! Hang in there it is going to get worse. Wait until she starts actually driving! hehe
Morgan is a great girl and you are doing a great job raising her. Just hang in there. And you will be friends again. But being a good mom is more important right now.
Grandma Peggy
Hang in there...pretty soon she will be almost 26 and you will wonder how in the world life went by so quickly. You will be her confidant and she will want to call you everyday and ask how you did it...(motherhood). Tie a knot and hang on, you will survive this time in her life. She will always love you even if she doesn't act like you are her most important person at the moment, you are, she just doesn't remember that right now. ha.
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